Thursday, November 29, 2012

Always.

Ryloggers,
As I lost my phone and having being stuck with just one song in the phone you grow to love it. So the song of the moment.
Always by Bon Jovi.

This Romeo is bleedin'
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It's been rainin' since you left me
Now I'm drownin' in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I'll give up

I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
I guess I'm not that good anymore
But that's just me

I will love you baby
Always
And I'll be there forever and a day
Always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye

What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
Touch your lips and hold you near
When you say your prayers understand
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net]

I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needin' to hear
I wish I was him with these words of mine
To say to you till the end of time

That I will love you baby
Always
And I'll be there forever and a day
Always

If you told me to cry for you, I could
If you told me to die for you, I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you

I will love you baby
Always
And I'll be there forever and a day
Always

I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and words don't rhyme
And I know when I die you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you always

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Short Writing - 2 - Platonic.

Hey Ryloggers,
Another attempt at short writing story, this time going for more personal and informal



I winced and swore loudly as I banged my elbow on the doorway, my irritation reaching a near peak. It would be the understatement of the century to call what I was having a bad day. A bad day is when you have to sit through a butt load of homework or when your phone battery dies on the long bus ride home and you are left with no music to satisfy your boredom.  A bad day is when you have an exam and you have no idea what the hell is going on or when you embarrass yourself on stage in front of a jeering crowd. A bad day is when... well you get the gist.  What I was having was not a bad day, it is Satan himself having revenge on me for god knows what. And yes, the irony of that statement was not lost on me.


I was already feeling sick when I went to school, only to be welcomed by downright bitter grades in my mid terms. Then my friends being the practical jokers and having managed to get decent grades themselves, decided to flaunt it by having a little fun at my expense. It ended up with my phone and iPod getting confiscated, me having to take blame for their mess, a fight with the two fifty pound dork who is my history teacher, storming out of class, a lecture by the Deputy Principal. I can tell you, that did not lighten my mood, which was already terrible because of this stalemate situation i was locked in with one of my best friends who was abroad. We were fighting and neither of us wanted to give in, so we are basically ignoring each other. Yea, we are terribly mature. Oh and also not to mention that, I also ended up losing my lunch money, so I was starving. Then I went home to have a huge fallout with my parents and ended up not eating there either.

So, by the time I walked in to my physics tuition class I was hardly able to keep a cool head. As much as I had wanted to go to sleep and forget this day even happened, I knew I had to come here.  Not just to escape from the house, but I also knew that the only hope to turn this day around was here, that this was the place to be.

I knew I was proven right when I saw her standing in the corridor, waiting for me. Her bag lay thrown on the floor as she stood with her back to the wall, her arms crossed, alone and aloof, deeply lost in thought. I crept up next to her and said softly, ‘Hi Stranger.’ She turned in my direction and smiled broadly, a smile which did not reach her eyes. I looked at her, seeing my own sorrow reflected on her beautiful eyes, her usual composed and seemingly happy mask not fooling me. I smiled back at her, realizing that I must be just as transparent. After all, we have never been able to hide much from each other. No more need for words, she wrapped her arms around me and I held her tightly close to my heart as if my life depended on it, washing, pooling our sorrows together. After all, it had always been loneliness and sorrow that had driven us together. Two lost souls, two friends finding solace with each other, platonic and comforting. After what seemed like hours, we broke apart at the sound of a car horn, outside. ‘I have to go,’ she said, ‘I’d see you later.’  She slung her bag on her back and started walking towards the door, turning around to wave and smile, this time more genuinely lighting up her whole face as she did so. I waved goodbye and headed upstairs to my class, feeling better than I had all week.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Collateral Damage.

Waves of time pass by,
washing years away,
bit by bit changing everything,
slowly but surely healing all wounds and
closing all chapters.

Memories remain, imprinted on the sand,
Neither fading nor glowing
unaffected by time,
dull and lifeless
scabby carvings
on dry wood.

years have passed,
long cold winter has gone..
replaced by the summer breeze
time does not stand by,
for any one,
those who don’t allow themselves,
to take part in time’s eternal game,
well, indeed..
They become very much,
collateral,
very much damaged..

                        -A/

Monday, October 22, 2012

'rant on society.

Hey Ryloggers,

Note:- This might  a lot of stuff, some people can't digest. (Hopefully. ) This is not an attack on any social group, so if any religious or extremist NUTCASE decides to attack me about this I'd like to remind you about this beautiful little cross sign which is just at the top of your browser window. Now be on your merry way, where everything is perfect and  bubbly.  For more open minded people, its kinda long but i hope you will read. :)

Our society is run by insane people for insane objectives. I think we're being run by maniacs for maniacal ends and I think I'm liable to be put away as insane for expressing that. That's what's insane about it. - John Lennon


Over the years philosophers, sociologist, political thinkers and psychologists have all described society in many different ways. It always ranges from a collection of people living together to attain common goals, bla bla. But from where I stand, I see society and all its social groups as nothing but a gigantic controlling mechanism. It controls what we eat, what we do, how we sleep, when we sleep, what we do, why we do it, how we do it, what we believe etc and it is all done in the good name of 'guiding' us.

For long, society has dictated whats right and whats not. It has been done through moral codes, customs, traditions etc. As part of our socialization, we are not only taught the basic things that differentiates between man and animal, but also who we are supposed to like and who we are supposed to hate, what things we are supposed to do and how we are supposed to do that. Society has for long regulated and controlled human life through two facets of the same coin:

Love and Hate.

I'm not saying that Love isn't an important human emotion, but love is also a tool of social control. We are restricted by Love. Love for our race or nation, is utilized so that we would be blind to the atrocities committed by our own people. Love for our family and parents are used to restrict our every move from early age itself, to make us conform to their way of life. Love for religion and love for god(s) is used as a tool of hate, distrust and anger towards other religious groups. I find it actually kinda ironic, that Love is what is used to antagonize other people. That being said, Love is not at all different from hate. Love is not the opposite of hate, just another form of it. Love and Hate are the reasons for the creation of in groups and out groups, so ultimately Love, what is supposed to be everything that is good about the world is the birth of racism. Heck, Love has also been used by industrialists as a bloodsucking machinery off the lovesick masses, so next time you go all out on a valentines day, ask yourself is it really necessary to have one day to celebrate love?


We defend our country with our lives
We pretend to see truth in all these lies
'Cause in the end.. We were men
  - THEORY OF A DEADMAN, WE WERE MEN. (Awesome song)
Now, take Marriage as a social institution. Has anybody ever considered why they get married? To celebrate Love? If so, who said that you have to register love? Yes, Society. Its once again Society's way of controlling what we do and how we do it. Why is society still refusing to accept Live In relationships. Why is it still burnt into our mindsets, that marriage is the true act of two souls becoming one? Only, because Society and all its social groups have taught us that.. have taught us to believe that.. The aim of it all? Once again, controlling the lives of people. And to legitimize sex, of course. That's the reason, they would have us believe anyway.  

Okay leave Marriage. Lets talk about Dominance and inferiority, Humans Over Animals, Men Over Women, White over Black. I've said the origin of all these has lied in our narcissism. And while it is true that it is the dark side of human nature to always want superiority over our fellows, (Also the birth of BDSM. the whole bondage submission thing, the theme behind '50 shades of Grey.' BTW, to all reading fanatics out there, if you are fortunate enough to not have read 50 shades of Grey yet, PLEASE PLEASE DO NOT READ IT. Its an insult to literature itself. I'm sure some of the great writers of the past would be groveling in their graves) this superiority complex is not the only reason for birth of dominance This too, has been Society's way of bringing order through a hierarchical arrangement.

And because, a lot of people have already been ranting about media's role in control I won't even say much about it. its a given. Movies and cinema project what they want us to believe, most of the time what the government wants us to believe.

For instance, World Wrestling Entertainment. the WWE. my most favorite show since I was a kid has always been monday night wars, the drama, the fighting, the comedy that has centered WWE was always so appealing. And it still remains the case. But just to tell you a little about how even the WWE has been influenced the US government's own vendettas. When the US government were at verbal blows with the French, WWE brings a pair of supposed Frenchmen as heels (the bad guys.) and they annoy people to no end, with singing the french national anthem and being a pain in the ass, generally. When the US people started losing faith in the US Army after the prolonged Iraq war, WWE used babyfaces ( the good guys) that people actually love and adore, to cut promos about the US Army, to bring about the whole nationalist spirit. Also, when War on Terrorism began and USA was at blows with a lot of muslim nations voila, an Arab American wearing a turban comes and pisses the hell out of everyone with his self righteous speeches.

Take smoking as an example too. Not having much of scientific knowledge, i wont go on detail but there are like million different things which hurts your physiology more than smoking. And even the environment, plastic bags, aerosol sprays, cutting down trees etc cause a lot of harm to the environment too, but why is smoking frowned upon? Cause its something which society believes is indecent and that stigma has to survive one way or the other.

Now moving on to happier things, and i m not saying this as if its something wrong but just to prove a point. If you think about your soaps and sitcoms particularly the funny ones, whats the whole point of pre-recorded laughter being placed at certain events. Sure, some of these events really are funny and you would have laughed even without it, but the whole point is to tell you when to laugh. Give you the illusion that its funny even if its not. So some of us, actually even laugh when we don't get the joke in a sick way so that people wouldn't think we are humorless.

Okay, So If I were to continue talking about the ways in which Society controls us.. I'd probably go on to write a few more pages and I already have the feeling that this is too long for most people to read so lets skip to the point I want to make....



The one who follows the crowd would usually get no further than the crowd. The one who walks alone will find himself in places no one else has ever been - Einstein.


The most beautiful thing about human beings has always been our sense of uniqueness and self identity. We were made so unique, that no two people not even twins have the same fingerprint. But as we grow up, undergo the process of socialization we are immediately instilled with social stigmas, prejudices and stereotypes. And in the process, we end up losing our individualism.

But the question is, is being part of the group that important? Is it worth losing our sense of self. The very thing that all of us can be proud of. We may lose everything as we go through life, wealth, health, family, loved once, get our heartbroken but take everything away and at the core, we still remain individuals. Is anything in life, worth sacrificing that individuality? When I see, adults of today talking about different issues it actually is sad. Because put in a different style, different words they just repeat the words that I hear so often on TV and newspapers spoken by politicians, religious figures. The fact is, they think they have an opinion but they don't. They just repeat what these leaders say, they no longer have any sense of self at all.

When a leader speaks his reflection lies. You don't have to follow anyone only you can set you free.
               - Cult of Personality


politicians are put there to give you the idea you have freedom choice...you dont you have owners they own you... media is put there to give you the idea that you have freedom of expression and the news you watch is true....it isn't its all an illusion

            - Anonymous Art of Revolution

Einstein was right. At the end of the day, it is not which group you are part of or which leader you follow, that would get you places. Its the person you are. Someone might disagree, saying that i m undermining society. that these socio cultural factors are what created this individual that i talk about. otherwise the person would be nothing but tabula rosa - the blank slate.  And they would be quite right. And I admit, its quite the paradox. Without Society, and social groups and socialization we would be nothing but a bundle of genes but we should know when to draw the line.

I might be coming off as a major anarchist here but that's not what i believe. I do believe in rules and social control. It was a great man (Red Forman. Those, who watched That 70's show, come on could anyone be greater than him right? And those who didn't, WATCH That 70's show!!!) that once said, 'Without rules we'd be hanging on branches throwing our crap at each other' And Aristotle was right in saying that anyone who thinks he can live without society and doesn't depend on society is either beast or god.

But What I'm saying is, one must start seeing themselves as a member of society, uplift the individual in them in par with society not give society a status above yourself, not let society dictate what you do or the person you become. both negatively and positively. While I've talked about how society controls people, there is also the other extreme. Those who go in extreme deviance just not to conform to norms. So, any leader or any social group in my opinion should not be given that much importance enough to change the person you are in any extremes.


Well, thats just me ranting. Feel free to criticize constructively, no extremist nuts once again.
                                                                                                            A.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

'Where I'd like to be.

Hey Ryloggers..
Its been a while. College and well general laziness have prevented me from blogging much. There is a lot of issues that I wanna talk about but for now, I m tired of talking about important social issues where I as one person can't hope to change the mindset of the agitated masses. For instance, capital punishment. Much to my horror after Dr. Afraasheem's untimely murder (R.I.P) more and more people have started to believe with passion that capital punishment is inevitable. That makes a small part of me die inside.

Anyhoo, this is a happy post. I'd like to talk about the place where I've always found peace.. The place where I'm most happy. As a person, I have a lot of friends and of course family that i hold really near to my heart and mean the world to me and I love being around them, but I've always been someone for whom 'Me' time is very important. After a couple of routine weeks, I just wanna sink back, put on Greenday at full volume and just soak in my thoughts, you know? Sleep a lot, maybe read a bit? watch something like That 70's show or Friends which amuses the hell out of me and get back to happy times :D.

So that brings me to the place which makes me most happy. It has always been the water. And by water in the strictest sense, I mean the sea.. The beautiful Maldivian waters under the gleaming sun glazed by the equator heat, that's just something which is irreplaceable. Its not the same but being alone in a pool in the beautiful (but well chlorinated) water holds similar attraction to me. What really touches me about water is its meditative quality. Meditation has always had a spiritual and not religious meaning to me. For me, meditation isn't connecting with god. you've got  prayer for that.. Meditation is reaching deep within my soul and getting in touch with myself.. As my basic hypnosis teacher once said, Its about drawing all your thoughts, worries and insecurities on an imaginary slate and wiping it clean so as you lie there listening to yourself breathe in and out, the only thing that has any meaning is then and there is the blissful state you are in, completely in tune with nature and yourself. And though practice, has allowed me to be able to reach this state of meditation often, combo of water and the open sky had always had the best effect.

So, yea.. Thats  my little rant on my bliss  moment. I'm sure I'd be back with something on corporal punishment or Family Roles which i have quite a lot to say about when my spirit is less crushed by the ignorance of my country folk.

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